Morning Prayer

Friday at last...I feel exhausted. I find myself looking for an escape, something to run to, something exciting, new, fun...but would that really do it for me? Perhaps in the short term - yes. However, judging from the past I would feel more empty than before as its "peace and joy" are hollow or momentary at best.

The fact is nothing fills the place only God is big enough for. I know that. Why is it then that I gravitate to the temporary, those things that can't deliver? Perhaps it's my independent "I'm big enough - I can handle it" mindset. Maybe it's my lack of trust that He will come through with what I think I need. Or more to the point, my unwillingness to wait on the Lord until He delivers.

He has been SO faithful to me over the years, He has come through in ways I could only have dreamt of with perfect timing and so generously too...yet I find myself in this place again. What is wrong with me?! The fact is I just don't have what it takes to live the life of faith.

That's enough to send me to my knees.


Morning Prayer

Lord, here it is another day
Please fill my life anew
I am bereft of what it takes
To live this life for You

Deliver me from futile efforts
To walk with dignity and power
Impose on me Your very essence
As in the beauty of a flower

Cleanse me from the inside out
Eradicate my mess
Ooze Your being through mortal me
Or I am nothing, I confess.

9-24-07


John 15:5
"I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing.

2 Corinthians 2:14-15
But thanks be to God, who always leads us in triumphal procession in Christ and through us spreads everywhere the fragrance of the knowledge of him. For we are to God the aroma of Christ among those who are being saved and those who are perishing.

John 7:38
Whoever believes in me, as the Scripture has said, streams of living water will flow from within him.

Isaiah 40:31 (NKJV)
"But those who wait on the LORD shall renew their strength..."

"Those who hope in (trust in, look expectantly to) the Lord will renew their strength." Their weakness will give way to God's strength (NIV Study Bible). In fact "they will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint."